the 101

i got something quite wrong all this while. i had placed my bet on the outcome of the direction, destiny, purpose, reason of serving. but it took me a while to come to grips with an important facet of any ministry. the why you serve?

would you serve if you do no get any direct benefits?

what would you do jase, if God took away what was 'important' to you now? that all you believed you had 'worked' for and towards was a delusional pile of dust, never to happen. knowing this in hindsight, would you still serve?


and i found out the why.. it is because He is Lord.
and it is my spiritual act of worship, hopefully pleasing to my King.



it was no longer words, but sorry Lord for making it something else other than You. i believe i would feel pain, but now i know the reason i serve.. it will strengthen me to make changes that might not be so... pleasant to people. because in one way or the other we are all stuck in our systems, ruled and governed by them. lets create some change when i can.


but above all else for tonight... thank you for setting the Serving 101 right.
you MUST know and live why you serve...

if not you might just labor in vain.

mornin'

i woke up with an odd sense of foreboding. like a tiny stream of dread that spoiled the larger river of normality and rest. it probably had something to do with the dream. i was at someone's wedding i think. but it definitely wasn't mine :)

it wasn't all bad. one step closer to understanding.
yet so much more to be done that i'll put it aside as usual.


a few more errands to complete,
and loads more to prepare.

but for now..
hajime no ippo :)

-.-

i feel like disconnecting!

and so i will! *switches off lights*

gdnite world. 40mins more pleaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaase

before i see the colours at crunch time again.

a Nice day

had a totally unproductive and uneventful day.... Nice!! :)

there are days when all the busy-ness seems never ending? dun give up, your day will come for rest. it just gives me more space to work out things, though slowly. (if i move at all).

rest.. here i come

PacMan

sure you wanna stand in the ring and say just do it?

they call boxing the gentleman's sport. its true la!! some of you may go o.O and wooooot but in some ways, the outcome of the match is decided by pure discipline in training and a diligence in drawing out any talent, and standing strong when the going gets tough. real tough. the grueling regime, the endurance, the weight balance! (aha now you feel the pain!)

Right Hook....

this man is Manny "Pac-Man" Pacquiao (Right), Filipino, and new WBO welterweight champion after he defeated Miguel Cotto (Left).

.....Left Straight!!

what's more exciting than this match? perhaps a chance to see how the best boxer in asian history (who defeated Oscar De La Hoya and KO'ed Ricky Hatton), would fare against Floyd Mayweather Jr. aka classic difficult to handle dude, aka trash talk taunting kinda personality. but he's good? that's why it'll be a multi-million matchup!

what chu lookin' at?? (Floyd Mayweather Jr.)

i don't really follow boxing live (dun ask how long i haven't really watched tv), but this is one of those i might wanna take to a tv and see the best of the east vs the best of the west. who is the best pound for pound? as they say, it ain't over, till its over!

humbled

pwnd. brkn.
banned myself from postin anythin on fb or twit.
sidetrack the pain, 3 more papers to go, within 2 days.
i'm kinda angry actually. n it spreads like an odd fireball.
then i get angry at ppl who made me angry, again.
things just come up n come out wrong.
just another bad headache.
so humbled.

because how do i go on, if not for who i believe who believes in me?
(yeah, i can't even share/twit/shoutout this, cause there's no time.)
discipline!
so humbled.
humbled.

Unashamed

I have not much, to offer You.
Not near what You deserve, but still I come,
Because Your cross, has placed in me my worth.

Oh Christ my King, of sympathy,
Whose wounds secure my peace.
Your grace extends to call me friend.
Your mercy sets me free.

And I know I'm weak, I know I'm unworthy,
To call upon Your name.
But because of grace, because of Your mercy,
I stand here unashamed.

I can't explain this kind of love, I'm humbled and amazed,
That You'd come down, from heaven's heights,
And greet me face to face.

Here I am at Your feet,
In my brokenness, complete.