Silent Amazement
i had finally settled into subang, after 2 weeks of intense schedules, overwhelming work and an exciting trip down south. each account is a story by itself, new discoveries that each quietly add to and inspire me to hold on, stand still and charge forward :)
just finished my last mid sem exam on econs. one that i actually properly for. i'll be doing well for that one hopefully :p
despite the hectic times, something awesome i realised.. that those timings/sequence of things going well and fitting into my 24, is like a silent, passive, but equally amazing blessing. its not just once, twice, or three times these past weeks that i've went to sleep or planned something, but find myself resting overtime (overslept)/apportioned time but 'overslept' to the exact right time, just enough rest, to continue the day's task. or apportioned something just to find that it went well. for a person particular about timing, its something that i'm attuned to, and thankful for ;)
eg1. i went to sleep when a presentation and assignment were due. scheduling myself to wake up 2 hours later, i had slept 5 hours instead, right up to enough time for me to drive to ss15, and shift to presentation mode. i have done enough presentations to know that if i slept less, i'd look MORE stoned, and worse, incoherent. the assignment i found out, could be delayed for small penalties (which, i gladly took)
eg.2 just yest i realised that i had scheduled myself to go to church (i had forgotten my classes end at 3.30, not at 1) but plan was cancelled cause no one would be in the office. studying up till 1, i knew i had to wake up by 8, but woke up by 9.30. just in time for the last tutorial class of the semester.
mind you, i set alarms for all these occasions and more.. but, these were the ways i had enough rest. and rest i needed from a long weekend :)
not to promote procrastination at all! but inspite of my shortcomings, i can see Grace working in this manner without what i described to andrew as 'fireworks' of the faith. oh and that- had a good talk with my housemate after my own discoveries at the johor retreat. quite a time!
i have my questions, and can only see limitations sometimes.
but my God is mighty to save (Zephaniah 3:17)
and that's a silent amazement i'll carry in the back of my mind and maybe in the cheer of my smile :)
Praise His name!
just finished my last mid sem exam on econs. one that i actually properly for. i'll be doing well for that one hopefully :p
despite the hectic times, something awesome i realised.. that those timings/sequence of things going well and fitting into my 24, is like a silent, passive, but equally amazing blessing. its not just once, twice, or three times these past weeks that i've went to sleep or planned something, but find myself resting overtime (overslept)/apportioned time but 'overslept' to the exact right time, just enough rest, to continue the day's task. or apportioned something just to find that it went well. for a person particular about timing, its something that i'm attuned to, and thankful for ;)
eg1. i went to sleep when a presentation and assignment were due. scheduling myself to wake up 2 hours later, i had slept 5 hours instead, right up to enough time for me to drive to ss15, and shift to presentation mode. i have done enough presentations to know that if i slept less, i'd look MORE stoned, and worse, incoherent. the assignment i found out, could be delayed for small penalties (which, i gladly took)
eg.2 just yest i realised that i had scheduled myself to go to church (i had forgotten my classes end at 3.30, not at 1) but plan was cancelled cause no one would be in the office. studying up till 1, i knew i had to wake up by 8, but woke up by 9.30. just in time for the last tutorial class of the semester.
mind you, i set alarms for all these occasions and more.. but, these were the ways i had enough rest. and rest i needed from a long weekend :)
not to promote procrastination at all! but inspite of my shortcomings, i can see Grace working in this manner without what i described to andrew as 'fireworks' of the faith. oh and that- had a good talk with my housemate after my own discoveries at the johor retreat. quite a time!
i have my questions, and can only see limitations sometimes.
but my God is mighty to save (Zephaniah 3:17)
and that's a silent amazement i'll carry in the back of my mind and maybe in the cheer of my smile :)
Praise His name!
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