Facing Fears

i quite liked writing this. i haven't been doing any word play and trying to write down the simple fears that tend to creep up on me from time to time. coming to a point, a new season of strength and renewed vigor, it is humbling when the light fades and you have to rely on Him to go on without being able to do so yourself. i have always tried being honest with myself, but truth isn't pleasant at many junctures.

expectations? He has faith in you too. bear it peacekeeper.
purpose? mine seems to be waiting for now. hope i'm not too late. not too rushed. being just in time.. always gave me that unique adrenaline rush, the rightness of time. timing timing...



it feels quite empty sometimes.
memories fade and fires fizzle.
nothing left but a bold, cold drizzle.
have i not thought many paths a clear bright chance.
just to find its my enemy's deep dark dance.
i search, i find, i struggle and i seek.
for hope, for faith, for love, for more.
seeing the greatest Love and emptiness of soul.
everything in between, trying to be true.
Lord, i fall, i can't help but blame.
my lack, humanity, broken, in shame.
others have their call, to be glorious in battle
mine seems to be wait, this is not your way to settle,
hold your fist boy, you ain't on that list!
what can i do Lord, besides failing You.
its easy to ignore, again and again,
blindness culminating, ignorant building,
when i revel to gain just some more
failing miserably, in holiness to adore.
there is more steel now, than ever before.
You have revived me, like the miracles of lore
Oh i want to live by Your word,
not by the sword of man.
bound only to the clarion sound of heaven
to fight on Your side, forevermore.
no one calls me, but You.
i think, mayhaps i need something louder.
than that soft, gentle whisper..