'nuf said

"For the Kingdom of God is not just a lot of talk; it is living by God’s power." - 1 Cor 4:20 (NLT)

Fasting

prayer and fasting was the theme and focus. seeking God's direction and favour in confusing times could be practically done through this. yet a lot of people find this tough today. n in today's consumerist, substitute rich market, we're spoilt for choice. and not to mention we're just spoilt.





nothing compares to this place
where i can see you face to face

i feel your power renew
:)

Finals

4 more papers to go :D one ongoing take home paper (Lord let it not be like my assignment -_-" kicks me in the butt.) CB on thursday, then a week of break for rest and CLRetreat!! then the next weeks friday for Int.Marketing, then another weekend before EconTech aka HardestSubjectToTalkNonsense aka i'm lagging behind aka i'm taking things too easy. then... TheEnd.

but i think i'll end up in somewhere predictable.
as the end is coming, i remind/am reminded to take up a challenge and put next semesters time on the table. i think its a workable, practical, step of faith. it'll be exciting to see what turns up come enrolment/timetabling. signpost, signpost!!

then we filled in this survey form in cb lecture. i wonder... if it could happen? 6 months to see the world. sounds like fun :)

after a hectic, crazy few weeks of mind bending deadlines- i come to think of how much have i let God take hold this sem and how much of me did i still keep in, foolishly, faithlessly, fearfully. i'll probably have more time to reflect bout that in the weeks to come. God is faithful even when i'm just sitting at the sidelines pondering. time waits for no man, but God times everything perfectly?

Indescribable!
you know the depths of my heart and you love me the same
you are amazing God :)

balik

i shall go home to the place where there is no internet and distractions.
maybe can do some work and get some materials.

balik =P

AutoMode

there are times when you just go on auto and blank out into your own zone. it could happen when you're driving (o.O)! or studying xD or just doing something you're familiar with. like LCD. like worship. like going thru some bible material. like brushing your teeth. (ok i added the last few but can be VERY true). its just that, yeah, i guess a lot of the times we fall into the TRAP of doing things with a mentality of... business as usual. oh i already got the skillz for this, no probs. so you pop up at the 'assumed appropriate' time and do what you should be doing.

aih. not.

ps.Gwen brought up a very valid point. we serve who? why do we serve?... if you're not clear on that, you ran outta fuel quickly and then *bam* you're hit with burnout and struggling with your own strength, drowning in the sea of busy schedules and demands thrown to you left, right and centre.

but when God showed up on the shore as the 7 disciples went back to fishin fish instead of men.. acknowledging His presence, listening to His advice and acting on that belief brought them much. and got fish, bread and fire waiting on the shore for them!

God, got salmon sushi or not? lol!


i'm hungry. and i was gonna talk about my heart's woes :D well, not really, just decidin when to be a man and do the right thing. wait, or i'm already doing the right thing by not doing anything. see, that's the woe!!

tak pe lah. God will guide. now for kfc. hehehe =P
n i was gonna shape up.
this won't make it easier ahahaha

10,000

*cough* 10,000 words. a wayward member. mercy or justice. assignment of the semester. what a prelude to a battle :D


so a battle song to go with it!

Turn it around:
all things are possible for You
nothing's too difficult for You
ready for change
ready for favour
i know You are able
turn it around
opens the windows of heaven!
pour out Your blessing
we cannot contain!
let it rain!
You turned my mourning to dancing
You turned my sorrow to joy
You have turned my whole life around
thank You, thank You!


great song :D gave thanks to God for things He's done in your life? even gave that enough thought over the busy schedules, the dinner appointments, your salary cap and taxes, how much you could have had and could have earned? if you didn't make this or that choice, places you'd rather be right now, a future you'd want to craft out yourself? where you would find the best crowd to party? where is the most fun? what do i get out of this? or just doing your own thing, on your own time, kept to your own thoughts, and never really bothered.

at times i feel bogged down by humanness, mine and others :( but i know God gave each a different capacity, talents, passion, compassion, gift, heart- so just as much as i want second chances and grace, so i must understand as well that their lives are not mine. thank You for forgiveness n purpose :D i can only do what i can and should do. and rest, assured in His awesome promises!

i pray God will show us the way! yes n amen!

LowBatt

oh its the 5/12 out of 2009 already! i typed the title in when i was quite drained but for some reason now i'm a bit more awake (at the wrongest times i know).. its probably the adrenaline before i crash with nothing left... i so need to fix the engine oil problem tmr morning... breathe engine BREATHE!!!

there's always this and that to fix, to do, to complete, to meet up to expectations. how can one be not tired? when i was thinking of rest, my mind trails to Psalm91:1 "He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty." ooooh rest. :)


i'm not sure why i'm so tired sometimes. something at the back of my mind being over-processed and taking up too much CPU. or something that shouldn't worry me, invade the peace of mind. not finding something productive to really concentrate on? or sometimes just disappointment that was capped just pop out unexpectedly at a catalyst, or seeing, hearing from another person. whatever it is, i wanna lay it down again....!

God, recharge! i come expectant :)