Deathtrap

June 26th, 4am.
it was a quiet drive on a different route that night. i had not slept and did not intend to till we sent off our friend on his flight back to Vietnam. then 10mins later i had to wake my cell leader and two pastors.

someone say houston, we have a problem?

an X-trail slammed into the left end of our Jazz, and observing the extent of damage, with a minimum speed of 80-100kmh. we were caught dazed, about to collect a toll ticket when an explosive bang threw our car into chaos. angry shouts and curses followed, fueled by the impossibility of it all. the co-drivers door was damaged and jammed, so i couldn't get out from that side. adrenaline kicked in and my heart pounded, with a good measure of anger. as jon put it, we were caught in a mass stun- and one of us was more seriously hurt than the rest.

ron was knocked out cold, and i prayed a desperate prayer for God's hand to be upon him then. he was bleeding from a larceration on his head. blacked out from impact. jon and ruby managed make him regain consciousness, as we got everything and everyone away from the car, fearing an explosion in the aftermath. with the nerve of a wasted drunkard, the chinese driver's arrogance seemingly overrode his intoxication and threw a rude, but pointless, stupid, condescending try at settlement.

he should definitely be thrown into prison for endangering innocent lives with his negligence.
i would sue him to heck and back again if not for a rusted system.
everyone surviving in the end.
and the pure simplicity of seeing everything resolved quickly outside the system.
but the desire for justice must be capped for now.



no police on site to test the driver. late ambulances. no bloody remorse. apathy, inefficiency, negligence. someone could have died that day, but God's hand was upon us, and death stayed its pace. if we didn't borrow the jazz n it were a smaller car, if we were moving, if it hit us from any other side... it would have been vastly different at that speed. my God is an awesome God. i live to tell the tale. i continued on. brain scan and test on ron said he was ok. and [M2L] continued on. just like worship night, just like Christmas.. the show must go on regardless. and i'm glad. but those could have gone both ways as well. though the enemy can destroy your body, he cannot destroy your soul. you are the Lord's.


what is with our driving habits and degree of social, moral responsibility?

maybe the soft cars we have are infinitely more dangerous to ride in because of deathtraps called bad malaysian drivers. think about that the next time you down some alcohol and says its ok to drive. or neglect some problem with your car and still drive at breckneck. its not ok. its not always about you. time to wake up, children, and grow up.

Gd Nite

yea! after completing missions and objectives for the night, i'm almost done. my brain is half stoned and i drove a tad rushed just now, since everyone was eager to hit the home run plate and Zzzzzz away!! now i'm seriously contemplating.

such confusion and agony and wretched disdain over the complexities of....... choosing whether to cook indo mee or sleep without it. HAHA!


a bit malas lar. but i think after a shower i'd be tempted again. i. need. that. exercise. regime.


a few things in my random memory banks nowadays.
i need to be prayed up and prepared for the moment.
but that's nothing new. what's new is... i totally randomly imagined myself with dyed hair, rock styled and electric guitar wielding. but maybe what i really need is to live with my refound confidence and tenacity for life.

with that new strength and new found balance of course ;)



time to wash up, check out with God and check in to bed!

All For Love

[M2L] concert is here! i never thought i'd get involved in this one cause its for the youths- but hey, somehow i just ended up where i thought i could be used. and tonight, i've gotta juggle between influence conference meeting (which i cancelled in favour of) class and choir preparation.

just as i'm recovering from exams, with the usual flurry of bad sleep and worse diets, haze hit the town and i found myself *coughing* and under another dry spell for my throat. just as i was getting better, [M2L] and the Durian Feast came. *yummm* so naturally sorethroats are like, the thing of june!

talking bout spells... reminds me of an old church production called... Godspell. wow. that's a long long time ago ;)


come for friday! and don't forget to bring your friends!
www.m2lyouthconcert.blogspot.com

Hekireki!

i've come to like this song a lot. for various reasons :D
the pace, the art, the energy, the chilling, the jamming in between, the build ups, the association with ippo, lots of electric, and yet, a lot of groove in the rockin'!

if you don't like rock, then i guess you should pass.
but for now, its the song i'm running over and over again.

and no, it doesn't matter what they're singing. its an exception.

oh yes!

grant me favour Lord :)

i can't do anything about it, but i trust in Your changing power. to change hearts. minds. perceptions. more than i can ever do.

i trust in You :)

for those who wait ...

“so Christ was sacrificed once to take away the sins of many people; and he will appear a second time, not to bear sin, but to bring salvation to those who are waiting for him.”- Hebrews 9:28

once and for all Lord.




listening to Great God just makes me smile now :) He works in mysterious ways. in the most effective! it won't be my way, but its alright, it ain't bout me. Glory to the God of Israel! i found out today again it doesn't pay to do certain things... but its not hurting like it used to. like a my strength has been renewed to full and overflowing, like armor in Quake or Unreal. hahaha! +200hp! Judas sold Jesus for 30 silver pieces. i don't care what one piece can buy you. the pain, its real man.


and for a relevant scary story of toothpicks in eyes and rampaging pork.... Matthew 7:1-6 (NLT)-

1 “Do not judge others, and you will not be judged.

² For you will be treated as you treat others. The standard you use in judging is the standard by which you will be judged.

³ “And why worry about a speck in your friend’s eye when you have a log in your own?

⁴ How can you think of saying to your friend, ‘Let me help you get rid of that speck in your eye,’ when you can’t see past the log in your own eye?

⁵ Hypocrite! First get rid of the log in your own eye; then you will see well enough to deal with the speck in your friend’s eye.

⁶ “Don’t waste what is holy on people who are unholy. Don’t throw your pearls to pigs! They will trample the pearls, then turn and attack you.

don't get nightmares! o.O