Grad-itude

It hasn't really sunk in yet me thinks. the grace.. the whoa. of it all. i know i don't deserve the grades from effort alone, since the mediocrity of my ways in academics are plain to see (; doing what i can, when i can (when i feel like it), i could have been roadkill for those last 2 papers.

yet i'm here, heading into another year of uncertainty with a backlog of blessings.
the perfect love of Christ.
Indescribable,
Incredible.

thank You for life,
Brother, Savior, King.

To Be.

what would it be like, to be there,
grooving to the beat of the soul.
to have dodged, perfectly, the threat of danger;
to stare death, pain and sorrow in the face
and triumph, with song, dance and joy
forever.

through the thunder of rain
and whispers in the dark
wandering, lost, doubts that cry hark

everlasting, evermore will it resound.
to know eternity,
to grasp infinity,
to be, as one.

mavis

I flexed my fingers as consciousness returned, the hazy mix of dream and reality lingering like the uneasy smell of smoke. it was one of those rare dreams, where I remember the people in them; the details of the highlights. interestingly, i almost never dream of the same person twice. ever. except for maybe... that would be a tale for another time.

It felt like a timer was counting down, that when i complete the quest, the old man would be revived from a stasis of the afterlife. time was ticking, and the chance i had was slowly and surely slipping away. Mavis was there, neutral and sympathetic, yet duty bound to fulfill the task of the final gatekeeper. all that i had on me was not enough, to pay the final debt... i tried my best to convert anything and everything i had on me, but i still knew i didn't have what was required.

the ending was blurred, void of sunsets and in fact, void of light.
but no matter what was around, in the end, it felt, alright.
it wasn't me who resolved it at the very end.

when the slumber faded,
and the light grew;
i wondered why,
and so i returned,
once more.