7:33pm

its been a long 2 weeks past- has it been two weeks? not too sure :P but it just FELT that way- weights put on and lifted, tiredness came and bode farewell, and assignments assignments assignments due!! (oh presentations too)

there are many things i could talk about... the hope for breakthrough prayer on sat, my consideration of taking up classes, how i should get my spectacles *blind*, my attempts at mechanical engineering, a new book i finished (!!!yes!), what does love and life mean, the pan-mee i just had for dinner *yum*, the last few games i had with my dudes, my vainglorious mental picture of what is to be and what could be and how wonderful could be would be. (hahahahaha that last one was fun!)

but i guess i'll just go with latin for now.

you seeeeee, i happen to like latin- as the most desired foreign language i'd like to learn if given the chance. i mean, spanish, french, japanese and many other languages are interesting to me :) BUT latin seems to have a special attraction by itself. maybe it conjures up the image of olden days, cathedrals and rome? that history, faith and language are connected?

other than that, i just think latin is coolness =P
(i've been using UndiqueVenimus- a motto of a US Army regiment)


April is ending, and May shall come soon- what holdeth the future and the path before me Lord? its the same question i ask everytime since the first time, but it has always been an exciting journey, no matter whether i liked it or not =P but hey, remind me of my original intentions, that i may not lose myself in the world!

today's reading :)

1 Peter 1:18-19 (The Message)

^18-21Your life is a journey you must travel with a deep consciousness of God. It cost God plenty to get you out of that dead-end, empty-headed life you grew up in. He paid with Christ's sacred blood, you know. He died like an unblemished, sacrificial lamb. And this was no afterthought. Even though it has only lately—at the end of the ages—become public knowledge, God always knew he was going to do this for you. It's because of this sacrificed Messiah, whom God then raised from the dead and glorified, that you trust God, that you know you have a future in God.

FnF4

was quite exciting :)

it reminded me of my NissanZ240 i pimped in most wanted. oooh. the usual question is, under the hood or you need some gear first? for me, its always about the performance and what's inside, but it never hurts to have something simple to makes things presentable :)


i want to try some good handling, good torque cars!!!! finances aside, its the next best thing to free flying. everyone wants freedom and to soar on wings like eagles! Jesus makes that possible!

sometimes my need for speed has led to some issues on the slow lane. impatience being one of them- and i've learnt a lot from just chilling and letting what can pass, pass. getting angry is occasionally justified, letting it get to you is kinda pointless! but hey, sometimes, you just can't hold the lightning fast reaction of "WHAT LA YOU! SHEESH!!!" (you get me to horn then you're quite good)



kena tested on this on thursday. but enough good rest made everything more beareable! goes to show i really do need my sleep right now. and the only way is to increase that physical capacity by exercise!! you get quality sleep, better respiratory function, less bothersome skin conditions, stamina, agility, strength, and just better chemicals in your body (not coffee day in day out! haha)


and that, is up to my managament.
hmmm where do i slot it in?
that swim is looooong overdue yo!

Beautiful One

when daren posted the link to the upcoming worship central on fb, i was wondering what kind of music did he sing (pardon my lack of music general knowledge, since i'm no music technorati) so i youtubed and found this to be the first hit, and i immediately liked it! its probably gonna stay on shoutout for the remainder of the weekkk...! the opening, the gentle build up and the lyrics. rocks! jump into worship! (maybe more like a light floating into) =P


Beautiful One - Tim Hughes

Wonderful, so wonderful
Is Your unfailing love
Your cross has spoken mercy over me
No eye has seen, no ear has heard
No heart could fully know
How glorious, how beautiful you are!

Beautiful One I love
Beautiful One I adore
Beautiful One my soul must sing

Powerful, so powerful
Your glory fills the skies
Your mighty works displayed for all to see
The beauty of Your majesty
Awakes my heart to sing
How marvellous, how wonderful You are

You opened my eyes to Your wonders anew
You captured my heart with this love
Because nothing on earth is as beautiful as You

My soul, my soul must sing
My soul, my soul must sing
My soul, my soul must sing
Beautiful One

imbal

today, a sudden imbalance, familiar, uncertain, exciting. it won't be easy, but its probably not meant to be that kind of walk in the park. self discovery and strawberry milk. which reminds me that i'm gonna have some then get some good shut eye! hallelujah!


sit back, relax, take in that whiff of sunshine. what has to be done should be fun, but try to have some fun ;)

Fever

ouch, my temperatures just hit the sides of my brain and refuse to stop pounding. pound pound pound. i thought they went away, but the chill to my bones and headaches are getting to me....

ugh i hope this gets better soon. not the most awesomest time to get ill.

work, never stops. in the view that my circadian rhythms have been screwed up. its really time for me to get a time out. even eatin, chilling and walking becomes a chore. adush.

Lord, heal me :)

Easter

oooouh. feel like my body is at its limits and mentally spent. i wanna do more stuff, but now its just physically uphill to even do something or anything! how many times more did You go through for me. ah, our problems seem so small, our urgency so minute in the light of what's important.

i'll wait Lord, for your promises are ye and amen!
gather my infirmities n make my paths straight.
service, woship, Easter, friends and dinner was awesome :)

thank You for everything!

Strength

after lying in bed for more than 2 hours, my mind calmed and steady, i decided it was time to awake and conquer my last assignment for the midterms. the last 3 days of Holy week bear much significance. Maundy thursday, Good friday, Holy saturday. I hope to keep watch and guard myself even more as the days unfold to Easter Sunday.


just popped Devotion into the music player. and the lyrics just led me to tear in awe.

When You stand, the tall tress and mountains bow
When You speak, the fiercest of oceans is still

Oh, my King who is great and mighty!
Why would you give us so much?
When often we can't even give you the little asked?
Surely you know our weakness and meekness!

knock and you shall be answered,
seek and you shall find
let us search for You father
and find your love everlasting

t=13

one day at a time babeh ;) *does a quiet victory dance no one sees*

haha its been that long and tiring a day. after completing the assignment in the wee hours of the morning with ultra bad vision, states of semi sleep and time constraints, i flew to subang n got it in, all the while lasting through the day till my test came.

my brain had been fried so i had to rely on short term memory (aka the last 10min) to get some important facts in. i almost messed up a question in utter stupidity and blurness:


question: find the new price and quantities after tax has been imposed.

so i tried doing all sorts of funky techniques on the equations, confident i'll get the 't' for tax so i can solve the consumer:supplier ratio for tax payment. 15mins later i'm like.... eh? how come it doesn't make sense one... i've done enough math in my life to know that something was seriously wrong here.

i went on to do the other questions.. then i came back and took another 10mins trying to 'fix' my mistakes. all the while taking my time since my brain was running on backup already..

then you know what?

reread question: find the new price and quantities after tax = $13 has been imposed.


AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! hahahahahahahahahahahaha


i finished it in 2 mins.

i felt so NOOB.

that's why i'm entitled to my victory dance. *yeah*

one more day to go!!

oh they lost..

1-3. they seem to have the drive slowly drained out of them on home ground. mcD is getting too cold and i'm getting too little sleep. (its never enough lol) things are not going too smoothly. its all so straightforward, get the journals, quote, print, close shop. open up to my notes, do a few questions, make sure i get the equations right, get some sleep. play your defense well, focus, keep your lead and watch the headers.

well, things aren't always so simple and straightforward D:


*yawn* its gonna be a looooooooooooooooooooong day yet. or maybe a few days all linked into one.

and so its goes :)

BUSY WEEK

amongst the busy schedule i'm still getting myself distracted -__-"

i'm so gonna look forward to a break after this crazy no-time-could-be-called-anytime schedule. Lord, i'm not sure how that last min magic can pull me outta this one!! of course, most of the 'magic' has been Your contingency pre-installed adaptive skills anyway. (i always thought so.)

skills trained and honed. misused and abused -_-"
but at times bought me so so so much time!!!
(using even 'evil'/'bad' for good.... o.O)

Lord let me honour you with better discipline...

Home

I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been
enough for me.

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.

Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.

I said these places and these faces are getting old.
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.


Daughtry rocks! i just took the lines that meant something for me-
 almost the whole song!but yeah, nothing like going home.

to the place where i belong :)

New days

24 :)

better find my place soon hehe

over the past months there were times where, undoubtedly, i sensed that i am where i'm supposed to be. its a hard feeling to decipher/explain. perhaps its the moments of hearing God's gentle words through the messy chaos. the busy schedules made busier. the indecision, freezing up, fear. but through it all, God is ever faithful. Peter must have known the reality of stepping out of the boat, onto the water. its a throat clearing, mind boggling kinda scary sometimes.. what is the future? but at the same time, its not too complex- seek ye first the kingdom of God, and all these things shall be added unto you. will i find anything lacking at all?? God has my back!

right now i just feel the vastness of everything.




even when i fail you
i know you love me

at the cross i bow my knee
where Your love was shed for me
there's no greater love than this


it strikes a chord in my soul. reminding me of how it was that first time, knowing He died on the cross for me. it was that child that looked and was amazed to the point of tears, despite everything, He still loves us! was glad i made it 2nd service worship :)


i got a new-old question for you Lord. and i hope i can see the direction in this. as i hold the line, let me not lose sight of the timing and placing for your promises, your blessings. armor up, it's a new day, it's a new season.



check point 24. *tick*

Ambush

after the assignment yesterday i had thought that the week was relatively over, that i could slack and chill till things get more 'tension' next week. but. i forgot that there was a consumer behaviour test tmr. and its not the easy quiz type.

and i suppose i want to get a hair cut :/
get a few things. fix the bike. study for the test. read that book. redo that assignment. go for a swim. chill out. have a coffee. see a few smiles. a laugh or two. small talk. not so small talk. just talk.

just that no one is really around for those things.
oh wells, you can't win all the time.

just me and You then :)